It all started one Thursday morning, when my body and mind gave up on me. I just dropped off my 2 older kids at school, 2 younger at daycare and I went to teach my 9:00 am spinning class. I began with my normal high energy and enthusiasm but within 15 minutes, I sensed something was terribly wrong with me. I felt dizzy, out of breath and a sense of panic took over my body and mind.
I excused myself out and stood in front of the studio to figure out what on earth was going on with me. Quickly I realised, I was having a full-blown panic attack. Of course, I didn’t want to embarrass myself in front of the class participants, so after few deep breaths I made myself go back to the studio. I had no idea how I finished the class; it was a big blur until I got home and crashed.
I literally collapsed for four months. I had to stop working (I ran a home-based massage therapy business), I was not able to teach any of my fitness classes, I could not run as my heart would pound as soon as I started running. I was even scared to go to a grocery store in fear that I would experience another panic attack. I felt miserable, unhappy and defeated: how could a healthy person who eats clean and exercises regularly feel so sick? I did not want to get on anti-depressant drugs, so I decided to find answers on how to get better on my own. I realised I was doing too much and this lead me to burn-out, so I learned to say no more often. I healed my mind with energy work, I started to meditate and took time for myself. I started walking in nature and slowly began to run again. It took me four long years to fully recover and learn how to control my anxiety and feel great again.
During that period of time, I re-invented myself as a professional. I closed my home-based business and decided to focus on my passion: fitness and health. I received my International Personal Trainer’s certificate through NASM and I became a health coach through the Institute for Integrative Nutrition.
What I want to share with other moms is that health is our true wealth and that finding balance is the most important element in our lives. When it comes to getting fit and healthy, we need to be strict with ourselves but flexible at the same time: there is time for a green smoothie but there is also time for a glass of wine with friends. Some of our workouts should be intense but some should focus on wellness (like yoga). We should make homemade meals but also reward ourselves with a delicious meal at a nice restaurant. No matter how busy we are, we need to take time for ourselves, even if it’s a five minute power nap. We should be able to have a nice massage or pedicure without feeling guilty. Please, don’t wait until your kids are older or you become unwell; start taking care of your body, mind and soul today.
Taking the time out of your busy schedule to work on yourself will be the most rewarding and the best things you will ever do for yourself you and also your family. It will allow you to become a woman you aspire to be: fit, healthy and most of all happy.
From the bottom of my heart, I wish you love, health and happiness:
today and for the rest of your life.